Friday, October 24, 2008

cyclopeses or cyclopesi

i did my poli sci stuff last night, and then ended up staying there and tearing off wallpaper... it was so much fun! it was a little depressing cuz it was all these young married couples, and me... but i tried not to think about it...

i realized the more i think, the more i get myself in trouble...

mr. saner is back! unfortunately, we're having a test next week...time and chemistry waits for not man, woman, or child...

we had a freakin bomb test today... by dad basically summed up the whole event...
"stupid people suck"
the people who are smart enough to correctly and effectively make a bomb are not stupid enough to plant notes, or risk federal charges... so why even put your ENTIRE future in jeopardy... do you think that after high school, these records just disappear... NO!

my rents left for philly this afternoon... it was just zane and me tonight... we ate pizza and made milk shakes... and then we watched the new indiana jones movie... which i will be using for my review... lets just say my review will not be polite...

i have been a perpetual miserable mood lately... i do not like it... im trying to figure out how to escape it...

im going to do devotions, finally!
God Bless

Thursday, October 23, 2008

drama queen

i hate the dentist...
i dont have enough room in my mouth for my wisdom teeth, so i have to get them removed... and to top that... we found my first cavity... we're not really sure how it got there because there is no hole or depression in my tooth... it's all nice and smooth... but he thinks the sealant over my teeth cracked and let lovely little pieces of whatever underneath it...
this is depressing...
my brain was fried by 9:00 this morning... we did this demonic brain teaser in chem... it took we over an hour to do it... not fun...
i decided not to do my math homework tonight... i just dont feel like it... i'll do it tomorrow during study hall and math class...
im going to visit laura and josh tonight at their new house... i need to interview laura for my poli sci paper... oh what fun...
i want to go hiking...
God Bless

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

power in prayer

i had so much homework last night, it was ridiculous! but i was able to relax today and just take my time... mr. saner is in the hospital... that is really scary... it worries me... we didnt do much all day today, so i was able to get all my homework done in school... well... most of it... we had small groups tonight... and we were talking about Esther... we basically covered the culture or Persia and all that stuff... we didnt really stay on tack, we had a hard time focusing... afterwards, we helped set up the gym and atrium for the outreach we'll be having this saturday... then all the girls were running around screaming and singing and doing all sorts of crazy things!
i hope to go to boxcar rocks on sunday... that would make me happy...
i have a dentist appointment tomorrow! i like the dentist... that sounds masochistic...
God Bless

Tuesday, October 21, 2008

Spiritual Maturity

A girl born into a Muslim family was beaten and disowned for her Christian faith. Another woman was thrown into jail and endured countless trials in the prison work camps for speaking out in faith. A young man was stoned because he would not deny Jesus. A teenage girl stood up for her faith and was shot in consequence. A father and his two sons brought much needed medical attention and hope to a tribe, only to be burned alive by a neighboring tribe. These incredible men and women of faith, some martyrs, while others still fight, display a deep sense of spiritual maturity. They chose their faith and their God over comfort, stability, even life itself. Here inlays the true question: how do we reach this point in our spiritual maturity? Does it happen overnight, or is it carefully cultivated and grown, like our minds?
When I was a child, I accepted Jesus Christ into my heart. I did not know what that truly meant and how it would affect my life. All I knew is that I wanted what the teachers were talking about. Being a child is who Jesus wants us to be. Children simply accept the gift put in front of them. They do not ask questions, and they do not try to prove that they deserve the gift. When we accept Jesus as a child, we do not try to build ourselves up, or attempt to look better than what we are. At the core of our faith, our spiritual maturity, lays the desire to be childlike. Without this principle, we cannot grow in the way that God wants us to grow. Jesus repeats the importance of becoming like a child. “Jesus called a little child to him and put the child among them. Then he said, “I tell you the truth, unless you turn from your sins and become like little children, you will never get into the Kingdom of Heaven. So anyone who becomes as humble as this little child is the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven.’” Matthew 18:2-4. Mentally, a child’s mind is exploring. It wants to try new things, to get a taste of life. When this taste of a relationship is put in their mouths, they are naturally curious, and want to know and obtain more. If nothing prohibits them from the whole bite, then they will take and accept all of it, no questions asked.
When I started growing up, my drive for knowledge was unquenchable. I wanted as much as my teachers and parents could give me. My mind was developing. I was asking questions. I see this in children at school and church. Their favorite question to ask is “Why?” They are analyzing things in a new light. You can watch the intensity in their eyes as they are faced with a difficult problem. Consequently, you begin to ask more questions about your faith. We know the stories of Adam and Eve, Noah’s Ark, Moses and the Red Sea, David and Goliath, and countless others; but why are they written? When we never ask the question why, our spiritual maturity is choked. We become brilliant in the stories and their meanings, but when we never ask why they are important, we starve our relationship with God.
“When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.” 1 Corinthians 13:11. As a child, we take things for face value, not really wondering why they are a certain way. In a few years’ time, we ask questions, seeking the “whys” and the “hows” in life. When we put childish ways behind us, we look to see how different situations affect our lives. We want to know what our faith means to us. When we fully know what our faith means to us, “We will no longer be infants, tossed back and forth by the waves, and blown here and there by every wind of teaching and by the cunning and craftiness of men in their deceitful scheming.” Ephesians 4:14. Just as when someone lies to us, we search to find the fault in their ways.
As humans, we strive for knowledge. We want to know everything that we possibly can. For us, complete understanding is impossible, but so is spiritual maturity. There is always more to learn, and more ways to grow. As we continue to ask questions, our minds grow sharper. When our questions are geared towards our spirituality, our faith matures. The relationship between the growth of our minds and the growth of our spiritual lives is incredible and irreplaceable.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

always the friend

friday night was the football game! we won!!! i didnt watch much of the game, but the parts that i saw were good...
saturday was so hectic! i was up and at the school by 745 to decorate for homecoming... i found out that i can make bows pretty well... who knew? i decorated the art showcase and attempted a balloon tower... plus hanging stuff up in the cafe... stopped by zane's soccer game and then went to get my hair done... after that i went home to start cleaning since i was having a boatload of people over! when all the guests arrived, we devoured pizza and scrambled to find bathrooms and bedrooms to change in... i had 26 kids and countless parents and other relatives over at my house, getting pictures taken and running around attempting to find shoes... there were kids there that i never invited, and parents that i have never seen before! it was hilarious... all the guys and girls exchanged flowers... and that was really cute... we basically all piled into cars after pics and hung out in a big group at homecoming... we all danced and acted like crazy idiots! at one point, all of us slow danced in a huge circle... it was obnoxious and amazing! i danced with zach, dave, and ian... not a bad way to end your senior homecoming...
we crashed at sam's house, and ate a lot of food and just talked until the wee hours of the morning...
El Faro led worship today at church, so we were all singing and dancing... and falling asleep... i worked on my psych project all day and then went to youth to debate politics... yeah man!
i need sleep, badly
God Bless

Friday, October 17, 2008

yellow and blue switcher-roo

im sitting in ap chem... not doing anything... well, i am doing something, but nothing of great importance. unless you call existing important, than i have failed at doing something unimportant.... but for once, we are not doing anything chemistry related in chemistry class...
thats a shocker! lets hope it stays that way...
i still need to get another guest pass, i guess i can do that now since i am not doing anything unimportant...
zach bought dress clothes last night.. and dress shoes! wowowowowowowowow!!! thats is really surprising... we talked about flowers last night, and he really doesnt understand what he's doing... so im just going to take care of it myself... but that works too...
i have to clean tonight.... since im having this party tomorrow, which reminds me, i have to call everybody...
well, im going to go now... and try to do something importantly unimportant...
God Bless

Thursday, October 16, 2008

accepted...

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!
i was just accepted to Eastern University today!

yesteday, carley and i finished making our shirts... we had a lot of fun, and the resulting shirts were pretty amazing, if I do say so myself... today was twin day, and i was frantically running around, attempting to complete stage 1 of my psych project... it was successful (sort of) we presented our spirit team dance, which rocks! and then I did car painting with alexis, carley, erin, amanda, delaina, jen, amber, kendra, and the other amanda... we decorated alexis' car, and we made it look like a dragon... i think we succeeded!
i have a dinner tonight in honor of a U.S. history award i won last year... so i need to finish up my english essay so i can go eat food... who doesnt want to eat food?
God Bless

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

black pumas

even thought its not monday... it still feels like a monday... nothing overly exciting happened today either... we practiced our pep rally act... i was able to relax today and do my homework... i had piano lessons as well... yesterday, zane invited one of his close friends to youth group and now he wants to come to our church and sunday school and stuff!!!!

THAT IS SO EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok... just had to get that out there!

i have to start and finish working on my psych project...
i still need to finish my english... and i have a calc test tomorrow!!! oh what fun... i have a pretty laid back week this week... until we get to the very end...
hahaha we'll see how that goes!
God Bless

Monday, October 13, 2008

yachts and sport boats

lets see... what did i do on sunday... oh thats right, i wasted my life away in front of my computer, doing my research paper for history... but it did get done, and i think it went well... while i was wasting my life, i was able to talk to eric who has now graduated basic and is moving onto tech school in mississippi... i was very excited to talk to him!!! i miss him a lot...
today i finished up the rest of my homework... which took longer than expected... but i was able to clean up my room... a little... i started brain storming our next youth group forum and how im going to run things... i think i have a good start... anyways... today was the second annual new world commemorative sports and eats day! we played sports for about three hours and then chilled at hoss's... i had a great time with some of the junior high kids, and some senior highers that i havent seen in a while... playing soccer was a blast... it made me miss it... carley came over afterwards and we worked on our tshirts... they are completely hilarious!!! i dont think anybody is going to understand them... but thats ok... its just for us...
im going to go hit the sack! sleep well all...
God Bless

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Elephants

yesterday we won hall decorating!!! GO SENIORS!!! it felt awesome to take away the sophomore legacy! sooo... carley and i attempted to make shirts yesterday... i quickly discovered that i am not an arts and crafts person...
i babysat a little girl last night... thats the first time i've changed a diaper in a long while... but she was really cute, and i cant wait to baby sit her and her sisters again!
zane had a game today... it went pretty well... he had a beautiful goal... i worked on my research paper this afternoon, and then went to JOY with zach... that was i whole lot of fun too... i missed hanging out with him... we had a spaghetti dinner for the myerstown boy scouts... i saw andy there... that was cool...
we're watching Ironman right now... im going to go enjoy it!
God Bless

Thursday, October 9, 2008

stink bugs

got my chem test back today... it was a lot better than i expected! our evil and maniacal plan for homecoming is coming right along... it will soon reach its full potential! we're all super excited about that... mr miller was singing in class today... it was wonderful entertainment... all it was missing was a good meal... swordfish would have been perfect with it... my dad made it home safe and sound from st. paul... that was a blessing... zane has a soccer game tonight... but im not sure if i will make it... i have homework and reports to take care of... so, we'll have to see... we have hall decorating tomorrow, and carley and i are making tshirts...
i bug flew down my shirt while i was getting into Charlie... it was DISGUSTING! i felt so violated... i screamed...
but thats not surprising...
i have to go finish my history homework...
God Bless

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Peterbilt

emotionally... i feel like i was just hit by a Mack truck... there are times when i just want to take away all the pain and the worries that people feel.... but that is not my job... i cant take all their burdens and suddenly make them feel all better... God, i really need you... i need guidance as to what you want me to do in her life... i need your help to carry out your will... how can i explain to her how beautiful she is... how important she is to me... but above all... how much you treasure her and love her...
this is way too heavy for this time of night... God, be with her and comfort her... help her find strength and solace in your presence...
God Bless all of you...

Monday, October 6, 2008

rolling admissions

hhhmmm...
do you know that if you have Alzheimer's, you can hide your own Easter eggs?
that is hilarious in a sick and twisted way...
school was nothing new today... homecoming is right around the corner, and we have a lot to get ready for it!
i didnt have a whole lot of homework tonight, but i need to start my research paper... so i think i'll finish gathering my information today...
i really want to do me devotions tonight, so i'll try extra hard to get on that...
my dad is currently en route to Saint Paul, Minnesota for a business trip... he should return thursday night...
my mom is currently grilling burgers for dinner...
my brother is currently playing football on the PS2...
i am currently taking up space on my blog...
my mind is currently being idle...
and i am currently running out of things to say...
i ref a game tonight, let's hope i get paid...
God Bless

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Go Phillies!

the LEADs overnighter was rough... but amazing! we prayed, worshipped, and encouraged for hours... and then did improv before bed... i only slept three hours... on saturday, mom and i went dress shopping for homecoming... we were successful and had a whole lot of fun...
today i had my senior pictures!!! it was really relaxing and enjoyable... i went down to Union Canal park, and then we went back to my house to get some pics... i took a well needed nap after i was done...
i just finished playing the piano... i find it very calming and relaxing to pluck the ivories... even though i am only learning... my room is a mess right now...
all my clothes from my pics and the overnighter are decorating my floor and bed... i'll have to fix that, or else i will get in serious trouble from my mom...
i'll go take care of that!
God Bless

Friday, October 3, 2008

Little Bunny FooFoo

im currently sitting at my computer... obviously... the new Bose iPod dock we got for my dad for his birthday is blaring music throughout my entire house... i love blaring music when no one is at home...
i just baked apple bread, and boy does it smell good... i wish i could virtually send you the scent... but you will just have to take my word for it, it smells amazing... i almost feel sorry for you since you cant enjoy this pleasant aroma... too bad for you...
i also recently finished painting my toes... thats exciting...
i need to pause for a moment, Josh Groban is singing!
in think that when God sings, He sounds like Josh Groban...
there is a little adolescent bunny outside of the kitchen windows...
he/she is really cute... i think it's hungry...
i should name it...
but it must be a unisex name since i don't know its gender...
how about Pat? hahaha... Pat the Bunny...
now there is two!!! i am so lucky... they're really cute...
i have a LEADs team overnighter at the church tonight... im excited... i just need a small break, and i also have NO homework this weekend!
awww... Josh is done...
welll... there are some things that need to get done before i leave tonight...
God Bless

Thursday, October 2, 2008

Surfing Hippos

ohhhh boy...
my chem test wasn't too bad... but the really long word/math problems in the beginning were absolute torture! we'll see how it goes... i am getting really sick and tired and calculus and the people in it... i cant learn anything... it just sounds like russian to me...
i think i have a good idea for my concept essay... i was thinking freedom... but that is sooo "cliche" according to mr. miller... so spiritual growth can work... talking about when you grow mentally, you grow spiritually as well... you start asking questions and seeking answers... i think im going to go with that! thanks mr. miller!!!
i reffed soccer tonight... the coach who was supposed to pay we thought that he was the away team and didnt bring any money... you would think when you are this far into the season, you would know when you need a ref... considering you called and asked for one!!!
i went up and played soccer with my brother's team... it was a whole lot of fun! they have this one incredibly fast kid on their team... Ivan... boy, he is like lightning fast!
alrighty... i need a shower...
God Bless

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

ionic and covalent

i have a gigantic chemistry test tomorrow! i mean... its like mammoth... monumental... huge... really big... ginormous... colossal... Goliath sized...
you get the idea...
i was experimenting with synonyms...
for our next writing project... the one about a concept...
it is a very abstract idea... but i'm liking it...
i was thinking about freedom...
i find that a very intriguing thought...
or maybe i'll see if mr. miller will let me do my Templeton Honor's Program essay...
we'll see...
i felt really yucky today... and i have my senior pics on sunday! thats exciting... i really hope that it doesnt rain and that the weather stays cool...
if everything goes as well as planned... i will be relaxing in Boston next weekend... but that is a BIG if!
well... i shall go study my chemistry...
God Bless